My Best Friend Spent Her Thirtieth Alone With Me—Finishing Our College “Someday” List

then folding the bottom before she returned.

“When?” I asked.

“The initials?”

I nodded.

“Before the formal.”

“And crossing them out?”

“The week after.”

I ran a finger over the black line through EM.

“I crossed yours out while packing my room.”

“Why?”

“I thought I was being realistic.”

Elise let out a breath that was almost a laugh. “I thought I was respecting your decision.”

There it was, eight years reduced to marks a few inches apart. We had each believed the other person’s silence was clear. We had